1 More Reason My Son Is My Role Model

Mother and son looking at each other with admiration. He is my role model.

Most nights (meaning the nights I remember), we answer a fun question from this Q&A A Day journal. I like these cheesy kind of things and taking a moment at the end of each day to reflect. And truthfully, sometimes it’s the only conversation I get to have with my hubby outside the normal day-to-day stuff.

A few months ago, we answered the question “Who is your role model?” Like most of my answers, I quickly wrote my son’s name. He has inspired us on a daily basis to become better people, for him and because of him. Watching the world through his eyes has made me appreciate the little things and has reminded me to slow down and enjoy life. What has been one of my favorite characteristics to witness is his resilience in learning. (In fact, that’s just what I wished for him before I even knew who he was.) Once he realizes that he’s beginning to do something new, he practices it ceaselessly.

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An Open Letter to My Child: It Won’t Be Easy

Dear child,

Don’t you see how much I love you? I would do anything for you, my love. You are the most precious part of life. I created you – I suffered for you – and it was worth every bit of pain to give life to you. It is my greatest treasure to watch you grow. And when you express your love for me, oh my…I can’t even begin to explain the way my heart feels in my chest. 

Mom holding newborn child

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I Missed My Son’s First Steps. It Hurts, but I’ll be OK

I missed my son’s first steps. Its the sacrifice of a working mother, providing for your family and fulfilling your personal calling, all while knowing that you might not get to witness every “first” of your baby.

And first steps – that’s a big one. At least everyone has been making it feel that way.

It’s the question we’re constantly answering: “Is he walking yet?”. We’ve been cautious to not rush the milestones, knowing he would grow quickly and that he would eventually achieve them all. The only thing we rush is trying to pay attention, watching his developments and learning unfold, not being distracted or taking him for granted. Despite all this, we missed his first steps.

first steps date card and shoes

Honestly, it hurts a little.

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Grocery Shopping Old-School: Back to the Basics for Baby

Yesterday I went old-school grocery shopping – AKA, I shopped at the store.

Wal-Mart online grocery shopping started just about the same time that I had our little Penguin, and it was a life saver. I no longer had to walk Bryan through the grocery store throughout seven phone calls explaining where everything was and what substitutes we could accept. Pretty much since we started online ordering, we haven’t stopped. I faithfully make my weekly order without having to spend time away from Penguin or having to subject the two of us to a possibly-chaotic shopping trip.

The thought intimidates me. Bad.

Toddler eating mandarin orange purchased through old-school grocery shopping

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A Spoon, Sadie Robertson, and Spiritual Growth

Tonight I realized that my one-year-old has a new trick: eating with a spoon. He’s been practicing this for a while, but tonight I realized just how much he has mastered the act. I loaded up the spoon with yogurt, set it on his high chair tray, and seconds later he had the scoop of the spoon in his mouth. Bite after bite, he showed me that he knew exactly what to do. The bites weren’t accidental, but intentional. I filled with pride.

baby eating from spoon

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Self-Care Chronicles: Guarding My Mat Like My Baby’s Nap

I will do anything to help our little Penguin get his rest. All of our activities and errands get planned around nap time. The bark collars we bought specifically for this purpose go on the dogs, the TV is turned low, the thermostat is set, the camera is on, the sound machine is playing, and all activity is ensured to be quiet and peaceful. I even made a cute sign for the door, politely asking begging neighbors not to knock or to ring the doorbell. For a sleeping baby makes for a happy baby and for refreshed parents. This precious time is carved out twice a day, every day. No exceptions.

Can I tell you how long I’ve been planning to/wanting to do yoga regularly? Actually, I can’t. I’ve lost track. It’s been a long time.

self-care and meditation through coffee and yoga

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Life in the Middle – A New Definition of Achievement

Confession: I am an achievement junkie.

What I would like to say is that I am a recovering achievement junkie. I get a high from accomplishing tasks, crossing things off my to-do list, getting all my errands done, and completing projects. A tidied house with an empty sink and all the laundry washed, folded, and put away is satisfaction to my soul. The problem is, I rarely enjoy the fruits of my labor, because I’m off chasing that high of finishing the next item on my agenda. Another problem is I’m realizing that everything is never truly going to be done. And finally, this isn’t what I want to get my kicks from either.

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Raising Resilience: Wishes for Baby… and Me

Resilience

It’s the word I had in mind for our first child throughout my pregnancy, before we knew who the baby was or would become. To me, it is a word that has meaning, strength, and character.

We were given a 100 Good Wishes for Baby book for our baby shower, and I immediately found the “resilience” page and claimed it as my own. As I wrote, I described my dreams for my first born to never give up, to break through challenges, to not listen to the opinions of others, and to be his best self no matter what. I told him that I would love him through every part of it, no matter the outcome.

“…You must know that you are made for a specific purpose that only you can fulfill. Chase after it with all of your will and might and love…”

As I finished writing, I sat back and felt satisfied with the thoughts I was able to express on paper.

Until..

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